Why am I sad? I applied for a job at City Hall a few weeks ago. I got interviewed, and I didn't get the job. I'm the alternate. This is a job that I have been doing as a temp for a month and a half now. I have to ask, what does it take? They know I am good, they've seen me work. They know I will do the job to the best of my ability. I will try, I will put in the effort. My interview went extremely well. Everything there likes me. I'm respectful, honest and willing to do the job well even when I am not full time and I'm getting paid crap.
But no, some person who will probably turn out to be a bum like everyone else who has ever held that position turned up, so they hired that person instead.
So, I am sad. I don't know why I never get these jobs. I suck. That must be it.